what it’s about
I’ve been a janitor for the past 15 years.
I’ve identified as genderqueer for about 17 years.
But really, I’ve felt this since the age of 8 (the gender part, not the janitor part) I just didn’t have the words yet.
I’ve been micro-dosing testosterone, on-and-off, since March of 2013.
These are the most frequent topics…
More about this low-dose testosterone adventure: I wanted to know if I could take testosterone long term while not going through any physical changes. I couldn’t find any information as to whether this was possible. I’d been wondering if certain internal experiences could be better. Gradually, I found myself in a place where I realized, I need to try out a few things and see what works for me.
I got on a low-dose of Androgel and was completely floored by how well I felt connected to additional testosterone. To me, it feels like it has a whole lot more to do with my mental health than it does with my gender identity, but of course, it’s all intertwined. Since then, I have tipped the scale more toward the masculine, but only slightly. As of now, I plan to be on-and-off testosterone for the rest of my life while minimizing physical changes. I’m taking testosterone toward androgyny. Although, I’m already androgynous, so I hope to be transitioning (outwardly) toward more of that. Internal transition is another story; that’s where this blog comes in!