what it’s about
I’ve been a janitor for the past 12 years.
I’ve identified as genderqueer for about 14 years.
But really, I’ve felt this since the age of 8 (the gender part, not the janitor part) I just didn’t have the words yet.
I’ve been on a very low-dose of testosterone since March of 2013.
These are the most frequent topics…
More about this low-dose testosterone adventure: I wanted to take testosterone long term while ideally, not going through any physical changes. I didn’t know whether this would be possible, and I still have yet to find any information about whether it’s possible, specifically. I largely feel comfortable with where I’m at in terms of gender presentation and expression. But I’d been wondering a lot if certain internal experiences could be better. Gradually, I found myself in a place where I realized, I need to try out a few things and see what works for me.
I got on a really low dose of Androgel and was completely floored by how well my body seemed to connect with additional testosterone. To me, it feels like it has a whole lot more to do with my mental health than it does with my gender identity, but of course, it’s all intertwined. As of now, I plan to be on testosterone for the rest of my life if possible, while minimizing physical changes. I’m taking testosterone toward androgyny. Although, I’m already androgynous, so I hope to be transitioning (outwardly) toward more of the same, actually.