what it’s about

I’ve been a janitor for the past 15 years.
I’ve identified as genderqueer for about 17 years.
But really, I’ve felt this since the age of 8 (the gender part, not the janitor part) I just didn’t have the words yet.
I’ve been micro-dosing testosterone, on-and-off, since March of 2013.
These are the most frequent topics…

More about this low-dose testosterone adventure:  I wanted to know if I could take testosterone long term while not going through any physical changes.  I couldn’t find any information as to whether this was possible.  I’d been wondering if certain internal experiences could be better.  Gradually, I found myself in a place where I realized, I need to try out a few things and see what works for me.

I got on a low-dose of Androgel and was completely floored by how well I felt connected to additional testosterone.  To me, it feels like it has a whole lot more to do with my mental health than it does with my gender identity, but of course, it’s all intertwined.  Since then, I have tipped the scale more toward the masculine, but only slightly.  As of now, I plan to be on-and-off testosterone for the rest of my life while minimizing physical changes.  I’m taking testosterone toward androgyny.  Although, I’m already androgynous, so I hope to be transitioning (outwardly) toward more of that.  Internal transition is another story; that’s where this blog comes in!

15 Comments on “what it’s about”

  1. Jay says:

    Hey, that’s really interesting that testosterone could have such a profound effect on your mental health. Hope all is well!
    – Jay


  2. Meike says:

    Hello! I sent you an invite to be an author on Undefine Me, so be on the lookout. Again, I’m thrilled you’ve offered to help out with the blog. =] And congrats on your almost 1 year on T!


    • janitorqueer says:

      Great! I accepted the invite and look forward to being a part of it. Is there anything I should do next, right off the bat? (Not so sure about being a part of the video channel, but I’ll definitely check it out!)


      • Meike says:

        At this point it’s still very much a work in progress, so I’ll add your name to the Authors page. What I’d ask you to do is come up with a short bio (feel free to look at the two posted already for ideas), and I’d stick it on there.

        As far as posts go, I will get a list of weekly topics up from the YT channel that people can address if they want to…but whatever people want to post works for me at this point. =]


  3. The Little Butch That Could (TLBTC) says:

    Thank you for the follow of my blog. I look forward to reading your future posts. Oh, and congratulations on finding a local PCP that you are comfortable with. Cheers.


  4. I’ve nominated you for the “Very Inspiring Blogger Award”! I don’t know how you feel about this, but you can check out the details in the post http://somethingqueertoread.wordpress.com/2014/08/27/193/ if you’re interested in it.


  5. Hi Janitorqueer,

    I’d love to let you know that I referred your lovely blog to a chain-style blogging award! More info here: http://brighternour.wordpress.com/2014/09/09/getting-to-know-each-other/

    I know you did refer me, and i’m not sure if it’s OK to refer you back or not, but i really love your blog and like reading your posts .. 🙂

    Once again, i’m really thankful for the referral ..



  6. witless X says:

    I just wanted to say that I enjoy your blog! And thanks so much for liking and following mine. It really is a pick me up to see familiar folks returning.


  7. nmwords says:

    Hey there, thank you so much for sharing your transition process. I’ve nominated you for the Liebster Award, so please see if you’re interested to accept:



  8. Calie says:

    I so related to your comment about the hours in the libraries. Great post and I featured it on T-Central.


  9. revengestar says:

    It’s very brave to get your story out there!

    Liked by 1 person

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